Going Home


Going home

is a series of discarded photos.

 A movie, a montage of moving faces

crammed into different phases,

blurred on the fogged up window spaces,

all stoplight swirls of people on autopilot
in the horror of passing through half-alive.

The wage slaves with blinders

spray over the myriad details.

Perhaps the only way to avoid this fate,

the only true discipline
is to stop for a moment the spinning carousel,

and apprehend the tiny miracle

shot through with words and coming out the other side

where faceless entities reside,

to read and comment and connect this ritual

of fleeting interpretation

to the actual substance of our connection.

When transcripts from the underground

is this beautiful mist landing on the sound

of my fingers pressed between pages.

The film merges with the car alarm,

connected to the wind that moves the curtain

to charm the leaves into heightened heaves of breath

from hidden recesses.

Awake again, as if Lazarus from out of sickness,

I can finally smell the tangerine peels from Chinatown markets,

I feel the bliss of one man’s lit cigarette

as it hangs out of an open window

to bear witness to the street scenes

packed into the periphery of dreams.

There’s the teary airport discovery

that no one knows when the next time they’ll share company,

that time together is a slippery slope,

a shifting season in woodsmoke,

a chalk drawing the rain would soak

and wash away

with the sound of TV static.

Under many years of cover,

certain circumstances bring these memories to light.

Surfacing at last behind the blast of an engine,

an explosion, a flag at half mast

for the unknown victims of your exploration.

A textured recollection, a fragment thrown

into the haphazard puzzle of going home.

A scent, a street, a body of water,

all that you’ve ever known,

pieced together, a form returning

to the puzzle of going home.